A couple of nights ago my husband and I had a friend over. He stayed pretty late and when it gets late I get kinda chatty. Although, I'm pretty chatty to begin with. Which as history has told me is not always a good thing. Anyway, when we finally made it to bed I was feeling a litte bad for my chattiness. I apologized for talking so much in case I embarrassed him. He was really confused amazingly enough and asked why I was even thinking that. And so starts my question for the evening.
Who are you?
"We're never happy with who we are. We always want to be someone else." Those were my husbands words. Why do we always want to be someone else? "I wish I was a better wife like she is. I wish I didn't talk so much. I wish I was nicer like her. I wish I had a better figure like her. Oh and if ONLY people could see me like I just KNOW they see her!" Those are my constant thoughts. I always wish I was someone else. Mabye those people I admire and want to be just like wish they were someone else too. I don't know. What I do know is that he was right. And I'm starting to think it's not a good thing.
Lord, teach me to be okay with the person YOU have created me to be! Help others to see You in the way I act, speak, and treat others!!
"I'm the perfect blend of genetics and caffine!" -The Gilmore Girls
Agreed! It's so easy to think that if we were more such-and-such like so-and-so is, we would be happier. But the more I talk to people, the more I realize that everybody thinks that. I talk to people who are beautiful but hate their appearance, or people who are super popular but feel alone and friendless. It completely blows my mind.
ReplyDeleteI feel like I'm finally reaching a point in my life where I *like* me. I don't always like the way I come across to people, and I frequently worry about how they see me... but at least I know that *I* like who I am. Most of the time. And that's nice. I'm sure it's something that most people, including me, will struggle with throughout life... but every little step counts!
Haha, lengthier comment than I meant. All that to say, good post!
yeah, what Hannah Said lol.
ReplyDeleteeven at 31 i still feel this way. it's one of the ENEMY'S ways of making us walk in defeat.
loving you amanda!